Undergoing brain surgery is a traumatic experience that can have long-lasting effects on an individual’s life. Not only did I have to cope with the physical pain and discomfort of the surgery, but I also experience emotional distress, such as depression and confusion. These feelings had become so overwhelming that I became suicidal.
If you or someone you love is struggling with the after-effects of brain surgery, know that you are not alone. Many people have similar experiences and there is help available. This article discusses the common emotional challenges faced by those who have undergone brain surgery and offers advice on how to cope and seek support. Please know that you don't have to face this alone.
Fuck it. I’ll never understand why I survived my aneurysm.   Why would I survive? Am I lucky? I sure don’t feel like it. I hurt. So bad.
I wish more than anything someone would listen. I can’t do this anymore. I hurt. I wish I was dead. Im not going to make it. I’m not going to make it.
No, things aren’t good for me now. I hurt. I hurt.  This really fucked me up.  Yes I’m alone. Yes I have no idea who I am.  I can’t remember anything. I can’t say how much I care.  Im not sure I do.  I’m invisible. I’m not sure why I bother.Â
Sometimes I would love to cut deep into my skin. Except I’m going to be here for my son. For the rest of my life. I want him to be happy. I want him to know how to live.  I don’t.
If you are feeling sad and depressed, know that you are not alone. Losing someone or something important can be devastating, and it's okay to feel hopeless sometimes. I wish I had found help sooner. It was truly the most difficult time of my life.
However, it's important to remember that healing is possible. Reach out to a friend or loved one, or consider seeking professional help. Remember that you are strong and capable of overcoming your losses, even though it may feel impossible right now. Keep holding on, and know that brighter days are ahead.