Two Year Annie-Versary: Time To Move On…Again

I remember every detail of this week two years ago. Nothing bothered me.  Not even having to go back and get my keys after dropping my car off.  I was getting ready for my trip with Craig.   So, I'm doing everything possible to celebrate and appreciate the life I have now and I will get back to my positive self soon.  Just going to be a hard few days for me.  Because more than anything I want my last week of my real life back.

Two years ago today I was excited, happy...everything exactly the way I wanted my life to be.  I was getting ready for a trip I never got the chance to go on.  That's what kills me.  Its so unfair.  If I could have just had that.  Even just that one night of it.  I think I could have moved on faster after what I went through.

Even in the ER I kept thinking, if the pain would hurry up and go away we can still go tomorrow.  Then on the emergency plane to UCSF I thought we would reschedule because, come on, this can't take too long.  I don't know when I realized I'd never get that day.  That's seriously what I freaking want but impossible to ever have.  Just that one night.  It sucks.  Can't wait until the 17th.  Just want to be over dwelling on the last week of my old life and actually really start enjoying my new one.