Who Am I?

Life can change in a moment – and when it does, it can be devastating. That’s what happened to me when my brain aneurysm ruptured. In what felt like just seconds, my entire world shifted – and I was left feeling scared, confused, and alone. It’s been a long and difficult journey, and while time has moved on, my life hasn’t quite caught up. My emotions are still in turmoil, and I feel like I’m struggling to find my place in this new reality. If you’ve been through something similar, you’re not alone – and I hope that by sharing my story, I can help others who are struggling with the aftermath of a brain aneurysm.

Life has moved on.    For everyone else anyway.  My life’s moved on but I sure as hell don’t like where I am.  Things are fine and normal again from the outside. 

Quite frankly I don’t know who the hell I am.  I just want you out of my mind!  I want to forget the old us.  I know who I was then.  Not a clue who I am now.  So is there any chance you can just be a complete asshole so I can dislike you instead?  

I wrote you that a couple of weeks ago.  Well, not all of that.  I still wasn’t able to do that.  I don’t know what the deal with honesty is.  It shouldn’t be hard to just say what’s on your mind.  Quite frankly I should thank you because that should have helped me get over you.  Was that what you were doing? 

It’s hard because I’m scared.  I don’t know who I am.  I don’t know where I’m supposed to be or where I’m supposed to go.  I’m trying. I’m trying so hard.  

The emotional pain of loss can be truly overwhelming, leaving us hurt, alone, and scared. It's important to remember that healing is a journey, and there is no set timeline for it. It's okay to take the time you need to mourn and grieve. As you work through your pain, try to focus on what you can control and take small steps toward rebuilding what you have lost. Remember that you are not alone, and there are resources available to help you through this difficult time. Reach out to loved ones or seek professional help if needed. You will get through this, and with time, you can find ways to reclaim what matters to you.